Hell's bells a few of you may still care what;s going on in my life.

Work: After 8 years of dedicatedservice Precision shut down on me. This is no surprise and like the good loyal person I am I was the last person, other than the manage on the payroll. I was then unemployed for 2 months, which sucked because I was broke, but were excellent because it was the first time off I had taken in over and year and I really got to relax and spent time with my son.

Family: My mom is as awesome a every, my sister is stupider than ever, my dad is the same as ever and I miss Ben.

Bruce (my son):  Bruce is 5 now. In kindergarten which has been an adventure. Were are going as skeletons for Halloween. I am very excited about it.

Social Life: None to speak of.

More later.

So I have had quite a few dreams lately in which I had to go back to high school as an adult. In one i went back to retake theatre and took a class that was co-taught by Losenski and Rosavear, but my boyfriend Paul was in the class with me. I also dreamed that I had to go back and couldn't remember my schedule. I had another dream where I went back to high school and hid in the bath room because I didn't want to go to science class. Lastly  had a dream that Bruce my son was kidnapped.

So looking up the meaning of these, here is what I have discovered from www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/:

High School -To dream about high school, refers to the bonds and friendships that you made while you were in high school. What spiritual lessons have you learned? The dream may also be telling you that you need to start preparing for the real world. 

To dream that you have to repeat high school, suggests that you are doubting your accomplishments and the goals that you have already completed. You feel that you may not be measuring up to the expectation of others. The dream may occur because some recent situation may have awakened old anxieties and insecurities. 

 Forgetting - To dream that you are forgetting things, signify life's anxieties. You are expressing an overwhelming amount of stress in your life. You feel the need to tend to everything and everyone's needs. Alternatively, forgetting something may represent your unconscious desire to leave that something behind.  On a more direct level, the dream could just be your subconscious telling you or reminding you of a forgotten appointment or date.

Kidnapper - To dream that you are being kidnapped, denotes feelings of being trapped and restricted. Someone or some situation may be diverting your concentration and your attention away from your goals.

To dream that someone has been kidnapped, indicates that you are not letting aspects and characteristics of that person be expressed within you. You are trying to contain and/or suppress those qualities of the kidnapped person.

SHINEDOWN LYRICS
"Second Chance"

My eyes are open wide
And by the way, I made it through the day
I watched the world outside
By the way, I'm leaving out today

I just saw Hayley's comet, She waved
Said why you always running in place?
Even the man in the Moon disappeared
Somewhere in the Stratosphere

[Chorus]
Tell my mother, Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

Please don't cry one tear for me
I'm not afraid of what I have to say
This is my one and only voice
So listen close, it's only for today

I just saw Hayley's comet, She waved
Said why you always running in place?
Even the man in the Moon disappeared
Somewhere in the stratosphere

[Chorus]
Tell my mother, Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

Here's my chance
This is my chance

Tell my mother, Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance

Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance [x2]

Randi: What do you have to get done before we go get our hair cut?

Rachael: (sarcastically) Suck some dick.

Randi: (deadpan) Is that going to take long?

I realized it has been a long ass time since i have posted anything on here. Shock.

Well, people it is November already.  Per tradition, it's time to take stock of my New Year's resolutions and see if I have accomplished anything and see what I can still get done befire the end of the year.

Here were my goals for this year:

Rachael:     I could be part of his world, but his world sucks my worlds dick all night long.
Me:            I'm glad they didn't included that in the little mermaid. I don't think it would have been the same.

As per tradition for the last couple years, I have been looking over my resolution from last year and evaluating how much I have accomplished and what I still have left to do.

Here are my 2008 Resolutions.

Here are my goals for this year:

Last year I also took a moment to reflect on people who had made a difference in my life and i feel this would be a goo d habit to maintain. So here are the people who have had a large influence on my ife this year and will probably continue to in the future.

So I realize that I have for the most part fallen off the edge of the Earth and no one hears from me anymore, so I thought I'd let you all in on what I'm doing and what's going on.

First off I am now going to school at University of Phoenix, taking online classes. This is now the 4th yes 4th college i have attended (other being Rio Salado, GCC and ASU West.) I am loving the convienece of schooling from home as it means I don't have to put my precious one in daycare. Don't let anyone try to convince you that online school is easier. You have to do twice as much reading, a crap ton of group work and you still have to show up 4 days out of the week. I like it though and am looking forward to getting my bachelors sometime soon. I do not recoommend bounce schools as much as I did. There was just a lot that didn't go according to the original plan. I think I am past plan a, b, c and am on plan f now.

Work: for those of you who don't know I am still working at Precision Research. I am going on my 4th year here. I have out asted 3 managers I am now on my fourth and I am very satisified with her. this week I am adding some different skills to my job repiore and am learning some of the responsiblity of the job a half stepabove me and I am thrilled at that.

Family: Now I am living in a two bedroom on Bell with my sister and her boyfriend Tom, who I must say all and all make very good roommates. We get along well for the most part and have lasted through 7 months of our lease with out killing each other so far. I am happy about it. We have the unoffical 4th/5th roommate of my mom because she ends up crashing at our pplace 4 or 5 nights of the wek, but she does laundry and dishes and babysits for free so it works out.

Now my favorite topic, MY BRUCE MAN. In case you haven't noticed, he is my world, the apple of my eye, the reason I get up in the morning and the best motivator I shall ever have.  He has now been improving my live since August of 2007 (when I found out I was pregnant and started making some pretty drastic lifestyle changes.) He has been here in person for 222 days, he is 7 months old.

Last time we went to the doctor he was 27" tall (2'3") and 18.5 lbs. He's big for his age. He now has 4 top teeth and 2 bottom ones. We are slowly working on drinking from a cup and he is enjoying a diet of baby food that is still primarily vegetarian. He is not quite crawling yet but he is definitely mobile. He a roller, creeper, scooting kid and lovely running me and Grammy over in his walker.

He is starting to get some finer motor skills. He is point and pinching small object which is exciting to watch. Of course anything that is within reach ends up in his month, which can be a little hair raising. We had some fun outside the other day trying to taste grass and leaves and rocks. He is expressive and easy to smile and for the most part has never met a stranger.

He took his second vactation to Oklahoma last week for a wedding and a lady on the airplane asked to hold him. He gave her a smile a hug and then yanked her earing. He also scored me some brownie point laying the charm on my new boss in his Batman halloween outfit.

I know this all sound goofy to you guys, but he i my first kid and to me every little thing he does is amazing and I am so proud of each little accomplishment. I can literally just watch him for hours.

When they asked us in high schol where do you see yourself in 5 years this was definitely not wear I thought I would be but I honestly couldn't be happier. My life has taken some weird and sometimes shitty turns in the last few year, but I don't regret a bit of it, because when I look at him I know it was all worth it.

What's funny is one of my first thoughts after giving birth, when they had us both cleaned up and he was in my arms was yeah I would do that again. I know I am a sick freak, huh?

One life goal down, 2 to go.

I'll give you a real update someday but until then laugh at this:

Subject: IN THE RAIN 
 
NEED WASHING?? 

A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Target. She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of innocence. It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Target. We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day.

I am always mesmerized by rainfall. I got lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child came pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day. The little voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all caught in '

Mom let's run through the rain,' she said.? '
What?' Mom asked. 
'Lets run through the rain!' She repeated.
'No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit,' Mom replied.
This young child waited about another minute and repeated: 'Mom, let's run through the rain,' 
We'll get soaked if we do,' Mom said.
'No, we won't, Mom. That's  not what you said this morning,' the young girl said as she tugged at her Mom's arm.
This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?
'Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said, 'If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!' 

The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes. Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith. 

'Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If GOD let's us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing,' Mom said. Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.

And yes, I did. I ran. I got wet. I needed washing. 

Circumstances or people can take away your material possessions, they can take away your money, and they can take away your health. But no one can ever take away your precious memories...So, don't forget to make time and take the opportunities to make memories everyday. To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven. 

I HOPE YOU STILL TAKE THE TIME TO RUN THROUGH THE RAIN.